| wow sooo its been forever since i actually wrote in this thing... and why am i doing it now well i guess im just in the typing mood trying to get most things off my mind... i guess im just having a moment alone... i dont know though ive been feeling like doing this lately and i want to go out but i just feel like i dont belong and ive been feeling like that alot and i dont know why... and it sucks because ive been having tooo much time on my hand that means pretty much doing nothing just thinking and eatting... 2 thinks i really dont like.... well i mean its just something that i dont want to handle since ive turned into this antisocial person who is just to scared to deal with life... i just sorta want to curl into a nice blanket eat something sweet and just watch some timeless unreal story of a girl getting her dream guy and her life falling into place and i guess its every girls dream but i just like the comfort i suppose... lately ive been feeling like a slug.. being slow and just ready to hide in my shell when it comes to things and i just sit back know whats happening and i just dont know what to do... i guess my solution is to really just wait till i go away for college but thats not even a set thing.... i really hope i get in plus coming up with the actual money to actually stay there... damn only if i was rich... haha i know the problem solver but other wise im just sitting back waiting for time to settle...
Anyways its been birthday time and a bunch of debuts have been happening and its sorta got me into this frenzy... its really exciting to actually think about it and when i get into detail about everything else like senior year activities and graduating heading to college and the summer vacation i HOPE goes through.... i mean there is just so much to look forward to and yet my head doesnt know what to do with everything its like im excited and yet scared about what it is to come.. i mean like i know a little is about actually going forward in like past the whole high school parents thing but its actually that we're getting older and life is starting to take its role... its more than just getting out of high school its how your become to be the person you truly are and im kind of scared of how that is going to turn out... ive come from being social out going hanging out with all the guys to just having a couple of best friends... not wanting to call anyone and just really sitting alone not knowing what to do and it kind of scares me and only because in a day my whole life can turn around and be a joke.. everything that i thought i would be.. all the friends ive had and just simply the idea of what ive been through... i dont know im just blabbing on about pretty much dumb stuff and i dont know i honestly have alot of things i still want to do and find out in my life im ONLY 17 and i still have the rest of my life to live...
sooo now talking about what ive been thinking of... haha thats a subject that i dont even want to talk about... soo i lost my train of thought cuz my auntie just came and she talked to me about how theyre going italy... damn in soooo jealous... but whatever imma end at that note
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| so today in school was pretty
chill i guess... i just havent really been up for anything lately...
ehh well yea i have too much things on my mind and school is like 75%
but there are other things that ehh i dont really want to talk about...
gets me ehhh whatevers anyways stayed in 5th for 3/4s of 6th just to
finish stupid bio crap... anyways yea...
afterschool just chilled and then i went to
In and out...
haha so me and ica can do the bet... haha of course i won... i
finished a 4x4 in like 30 minutes... she didnt even get a picture...
but yea then i went to get jamba juice and best friend bought me ice
cream =) haha well yea... just went to her house to hang out and now im
home im lazy as heck and just all moppy today... i dont know
cheer me up... its almost the weekend...
someone hang out with me =D
itsstupid...ihatethatimlikethisahhhhhhhhhh
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| Sometimes i really don't get it...... |
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| SANTA MONICA LONG BEACHBUBAGUMPLYNNSHOTEL
DISNEYLAND<3
RAINFOREST
CALIFORNIA ADVENTURES
TOWER OF TERROR bLUE BAYOU
HANGING OUT FOR 3 DAYS IN LA <3
THANKSGIVING
my birthday 28<3
JUST DOING WHATEVER...
SOOON TO BE
HAPPY CHRISTMAS AND A
MERRY NEW YEAR
THATS IT SOO FAR.... PLUS WHATEVER IN BETWEEN... O YEA AND IF YOU WANNA SEE PICTURE OF DISNEYLAND... GO TO MY INFO 
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| happy halloween!
school dressed up as a hOOters waitress
home to figure out costume for tomorrow....
then off to trail of terror... marilynn ICA and athena.... i didnt like the stupid guy in front of us
some guys from 93.3 was in our group... met new friends... haha we didnt know one of them was ..hit man haze.. scared the crap out of him.... they said they liked me cuz i was tiny??? haha man everyone disses my size... owell it was interesting.. they messed with me i messed with them.... we got cool saw 2 gift bags.... shout out on the radio =D and stupid allan didnt go so i dissed him... haha they were pretty cool guys except the one that hit me =( i called them Jerks....
after that went to jamba juice chilled and yea... now i wanna go to sleep... maybe ill read later...
good night everyone HAPPY halloWEEN<3 |
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